keeping the stream of conscious still

I am finding the percentages working against me.

I would say I really like 95 percent of my job, but the other five percent is ever so annoying, it seems to be on my mind about 81.3 percent of the time.

It's like coaching softball. Most of the time, I like working with the girls and teaching them how to field and throw. And while all the girls don't just do exactly what I say, they do listen and try. After a while I am sure they will get it.

But there there are the girls who say: "no." And there are the girls that ignore me. And there are the girls who argue about the coaching.

So far that would be a analogy for how things are in the library.

I'm wearing thin and I don't know how to revive myself; to make it so I am not just clamming up and ignoring the 'players.' I want to stay here, until I am not.

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My little theatre group, Gem*Boy Productions was suppose to play at the Mohawk Casino, but it seems to be hard to work out a deal. I had offered them about six dates that they could pick. I didn't hear from them, so I sent them a contract for a date, and they just contacted me saying that wouldn't work, but some time in June would. Now I have to survey the group and hope we can find a date that six actors can make and the casino feels will work for them.
It took three weeks to get the dates that didn't work out, I can't imagine how this is going to work, when I don't see the actors much. When you add to this mix that it isn't what the cast does for a living. What seems to really bring me down, one of the cast members was willing to work out the deal, but he would not actually book a date, so it put it onto my shoulders. The shoulders who would rather be carrying a back of catcher equipment.

It seems like it is the buddhist saying, "You step into the stream, but the river has moved on."

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